To be very honest I have been feeling a bit down recently. Today I was writing a guest post for a friendÂ´s blog and I realized that this may be in part to my not getting in many workouts since the start of summer. That is a reality that I must change because I know that exercise has a direct relationship to how I am feeling.
But there is something else. I am feeling very unsettled. We had decided a few months back that we were going to stay here. There wasnÂ´t any reason that made us say Portugal was IT. It was just that none of us felt like leaving. Does that make sense?
I am not exactly sure what it is I am feeling, but unsettled it is. I do not know if we can make this a forever home. But if this isnÂ´t it I am not sure what is. I will tell you I envy my friends who can, Â´Let go, and let GodÂ´. ItÂ´s been a long time since I uttered those words, but I am feeling that I have to let go. Hard thing to do when you are a mommy and you want to make sure YOU are doing right by your kids.
So, if you have any positive vibes to spare, please send them my way. I am fortunate that most my days are happy ones. This doesnÂ´t feel too good and I want it to pass.