Arriving in Barcelona was thrilling. Even though these European trips are cheap and easy the excitement of it all is not lost on me.

After arriving at the airport I hopped on the blue bus that brought me to the center of town. After checking where our hotel was (I forgot to get that info before today), I decided to take in the gorgeous weather, throw my bag on my back and walk to it. The entire way I fell more in love with this city. The architecture, the new construction and the urban planning are all to be admired.

When I finally stumbled on our hotel I thought for sure I had the wrong place. This hotel is 5 star luxe! Tops my family does is 3 star, but clean. Rather than get excited I went into a panic. How would I pay for this?!?! I only tutor! Would Stephen get cross?

I dropped off my bag then walked to the waterfront. I found a place to get a glass of wine and a nibble. And I gave myself time to take a deep breathe.

I know that I bring value to my children’s lives, my family and my community by being a stay at home mother. It took me years to realize that. But I know it now. That being said I am at the point where I want to earn my own money again. I do not want to feel beholden to anyone when I choose to order a 12€ vs 4€ glass of wine. The decision will likely be the same, but the decision will be solely mine. It is time.

Not a bad spot to contemplate being a better me, mother & wife.