Oh…Lord

This past October I went to Nashville with a group of friends. Some of the ladies are dear friends that I met when we lived in Portugal. Others were part of the military community there before we arrived. But I figured any friends my friends would surely be fabulous. I was right. 

The idea of going to Nashville was not mine, but as I really wanted to catch up with these ladies the location didn’t matter in the least. I am NOT a country music fan, but I loved everything about Nashville. It was a lively and incredibly spirited city. Give me any downtown where you can walk down the street dancing to music wafting from every restaurant and bar and I am at home. And the food. Even this plant-based eater was seriously impressed. One night we went to a down-home-cookin’ restaurant where all I could eat was the salad because EVERYTHING had butter in it, but it was so charming that I could only love it. We sat and talked to strangers as it was a family-style seating at a large table with whoever else was at the restaurant that night. 

On Sunday three of us decided to attend a baptist service. Of the three, I was raised Catholic, ‘I’ is a Mormon and ‘M’ is a Christian. We had asked our uber driver the night before where he recommended we go hear some good baptist music. He looked at us and commented, “You know you ladies are staying in the black side of town right?” He himself was black. Actually, we hadn’t. Funny, because since arriving at our Airbnb we had not seen one person out and about in our community. 

On Sunday morning the three of us woke up and walked around the corner to the baptist church in hopes of hearing a beautiful baptist choir. Unfortunately, their service wasn’t until 11. We had noticed another church on the corner and walked over to see when their service was. 10am perfect. We were right on time. 

When we walked into the church there was a greeter right at the door. We asked her if we could join the congregation for Sunday service. I can not recall exactly what she said, but I tell you I don’t think I have ever felt more welcome, not even among family and that is saying something! I followed my friend ‘I’ to the bathroom. Even the people walking by me in the hall and the women I encountered in the bathroom were so incredibly welcoming and generous of spirit. We all met back at the front entrance and asked the woman who was the greeter if there was a particular place where we should sit. She told us that we were welcome to sit anywhere and there were no assigned seats in the church. We walked in and sat down. We were greeted by the people in front of us, to our side, and behind us. Before the service had even begun the three of us found ourselves in tears. There was a beauty and an acceptance in that community that was unlike anything any of us had ever felt. 

The service was very unlike a Catholic mass. Instead of being spoken at I felt as if I was being spoken to. It honestly felt as if the sermon had been written just for me. The music was also a gift to experience. Two hours flew by. Two hours! After the service, we walked away somewhat speechless. We all agreed that we had never experienced anything like that. My two friends know the Bible much better than I do, but even they felt that the way the sermon was presented was so authentic. 

I’m not sure what my friends did, but when I got home I immediately made a donation to the church. There was something in me that I had changed after that experience.

I kept the church flyer. And I have kept a connection to the church. I have been following them on Instagram and through the hurricane that hit Nashville. 

These past few weeks since Covid-19 hit the east coast have been unlike anything any of us has ever experienced. I am aware that I am a lucky one. I have a job, I have food and a home. Yet, even with all my good fortune I have lost sleep and cried numerous times. One thing that I have relied on is my prayer and meditation. And in the past couple of weeks, I have also joined The Jackson Street Church of Christ in their online streaming services. 

No one is more surprised than me that this is what I am choosing to do for an hour on a Sunday. But just as when I was in those four walls, I feel welcomed and inspired. These folks are sharing a good message and doing great things for their community. God has blessed me, and now each and every Sunday I am reminded just how very much that is true. 

INSPIRE

Last year at Christmas time we had a Secret Santa exchange at school. The person who picked my name did a rather brilliant job of spoiling me with little notes and treats that I found both beautiful and thoughtful. One, however was one that I remember thinking, “Will I really  wear this?” You see, the bracelet had letter blocks that spelled out INSPIRE. It was cute, but not my typical style. Yet on my wrist it went. 

Immediately I knew that it would stay on my wrist. It has since December been a reminder of the role that women, myself included, should play in each other’s lives. We should always aspire to inspire others, while also ‘allowing’ ourselves to be inspired by others. Often, as women when another succeeds we use their success as a point of envy or an opportunity to doubt our ability to do equally great things. I am guilty of being envious and envy is ugly. This bracelet has reminded me to be happy for others successes and to use their victories to inspire me. 

A few months back I got a friend started on running. She went from being unable to run a mile to training for a half marathon, 13.1 miles! It’s funny because even though I am the ‘runner’ I was the one that was inspired by her to stay on track with my training this summer. I say this because we often are moved to do things when we allow ourselves to be moved by a gentle nudge that we get from others. We can take ideas and brush them under the rug, or allow them to flourish. I know that seeing this bracelet I am often reminded to stay on track because my good choices may influence others. But I also make sure to let others know when they inspire me. This cycle of inspiration can only be a good thing. 

 

This girl

My daughter turned 15 this week. On her birthday she posted this picture on her Instagram account.  The first thing that I was struck with was how incredibly adorable she was. I mean stop it, that kid was just perfect. I remember this trip to London. This was the start of our adventure. We were months from leaving Portugal to head to Australia. 

The girl in this picture was so full of life. The joy is just oozing out of her. I will be honest, the teenager that she has become is more reserved. Don’t get me wrong. She still has the best laugh, a quick mind, a fantastic sense of humor and an authentic heart. She is a hard worker and a trustworthy loyal friend. But I see that the world has changed her a bit. 

Lana, dad and I hope that our travels and moves have enriched your life. But looking at this picture I wonder if we also robbed you of some of the simplicity that could have been your life. Rather than growing up with the same set of friends, you have known what it means to walk into a room of strangers and have to forge a path for yourself. You have done it so many times. You are aware that people are looking at you, judging you and you, therefore, you make decisions on how to behave based on how you will be perceived. That is natural and normal. But please remember my darling girl just how incredibly beautiful YOU, the real YOU is. Please remember the joy and exuberance of that you felt in this photograph and live that. Those around you who are worth your time will see the beauty in you and those will be the people worth your laughter, your intelligence, and your joy.

I love you and I always will. 

Relationships

I started a meditation practice last year. It was helpful, but I was not as consistent as I should be with it. I am trying to make it a priority this year. This was the core message I worked on today. This is a tough one for me, but I am trying. 

3 of 31

One of the most inspiring people on social media is Robin Arzon. I can not remember how I discovered her on Instagram, but the minute I did, I was hooked. Every darn post she shares is inspiring. She is unabashedly fierce, proud and strong.

Last winter she challenged herself (and everyone) to run 3 miles every day for the 31 days of December. I thought it was cool, but I knew I would not be able to fit it into my schedule. This year when she reissued the challenge, I knew that even though the timing was wrong, (I was going to be a solo mom for two of the weeks in December) that I simply had to do it. Rather than deter me from the idea, the madness of the timin drew me further into the challenge. I knew that if I did not sign up that I would miss numerous workouts because of the hectic holiday season and then I would end the year feeling unfit and defeated. I took on the challenge and I’m happy to say that for 28 of the 31 days I found time to run, hop on a Stairmaster or cycle (I doubled the miles those days). 

Some days this meant working out in the evening which I hate doing, but I did it. And then I did it again. And then I did it again. I finished the year feeling better than I would have had I not accepted this challenge. And that my friends, is why I will do it again. 

This is the chart that I posted to keep me honest and on track. 

This New Year

NYC squareSince arriving in the States we I have thought numerous times of posting to kiwigalo, but life always seemed to get in the way of my making time for myself. This endeavor is something I do to chronicle my life and my thoughts. I do it for myself, but also for my children. I know Lana has often come here to scroll through our memories and I believe she has gotten to know me better by reading my words. They are not eloquent, rather they are simple, but they are mine. 

I am not here to make any promises to anyone that I will be posting often. No, I am here to remind myself that my life continues to be an adventure even if I am living back at home. I took the above photo quite randomly after getting myself and Sophia a coffee while in NYC. This image keeps coming to mind. I have no idea what this year holds for me. But oddly, I know that there will be big changes. Sometimes it is rattling in our soul, something only perceived to ourselves that constitutes the greatest change. And I feel it. 

Happy New Year.