Arriving in Barcelona was thrilling. Even though these European trips are cheap and easy the excitement of it all is not lost on me.

After arriving at the airport I hopped on the blue bus that brought me to the center of town. After checking where our hotel was (I forgot to get that info before today), I decided to take in the gorgeous weather, throw my bag on my back and walk to it. The entire way I fell more in love with this city. The architecture, the new construction and the urban planning are all to be admired.

When I finally stumbled on our hotel I thought for sure I had the wrong place. This hotel is 5 star luxe! Tops my family does is 3 star, but clean. Rather than get excited I went into a panic. How would I pay for this?!?! I only tutor! Would Stephen get cross?

I dropped off my bag then walked to the waterfront. I found a place to get a glass of wine and a nibble. And I gave myself time to take a deep breathe.

I know that I bring value to my children’s lives, my family and my community by being a stay at home mother. It took me years to realize that. But I know it now. That being said I am at the point where I want to earn my own money again. I do not want to feel beholden to anyone when I choose to order a 12€ vs 4€ glass of wine. The decision will likely be the same, but the decision will be solely mine. It is time.

Not a bad spot to contemplate being a better me, mother & wife.

Let’s be honest here. I have nothing to escape from in my life. I live in a cute apartment with my cute kids (my pain in the butt husband lives there too, but he makes us laugh, do we keep him). We live walking distance from a lovely beach. Those reasons right there are good enough to make me never need to leave.

But this weekend is not about getting away. Rather, it’s about connecting.

I have many friends. Unfortunately, many of them live far away from me. I try to be a good friend from a distance, but truth is I suck at it. Yes, I am good with FB, but let’s be honest, there is something about FB that is disconnected and focuses too much on shining a light only on the positive.

Well, I had this great opportunity to meet up with a girlfriend who’s visiting Barcelona. She has been a good friend for years. I invited myself to join her because I knew we would have a blast. She’s a very successful woman, but still makes time to enjoy life to the fullest. I also wanted to go to be with her. Phyllis’ husband passed away a few years back. But he was a Steve. So she understands what it’s like to be married to one. It’s always been a bond. And still is.

I can’t wait!